I have no idea what I’m doing. But neither do you.

Who is Keri?

Oh, She’s lovely. But then, I would say that, because I am She.

She’s decided to keep a blog because, lets face it, She needs all the help She can get. Who doesn’t?

So… Yeah.

At the moment I have two primary concerns, to be laughing and to help others feel invincible.  For the vast majority of my life, I’ve been awed by the realization that our existence matters. However much easier to think it doesn’t, I have always had this belief, hidden in the parts of me. But I’ve never said it out loud, because if you think it does, if you tell others, you will be overwhelmed.

I’m not talking about “God”, or whatever. I’m not sure I even want to be talking about the complexities of life. More so, a short quip, of an explanation, of why I am so intent on being good.

How about this:

No one in the world knows everything. Everyone is good at some things and not so good at others. No matter how talented, smart, or capable you are, you cannot predict or control everything that happens in your life. We have to learn by fucking up. Because, like anything else, your life will improve with practice. Learning who you are doesn’t happen overnight. In fact, in my humble opinion, we wont know til we are dead.

Because of this, I have this incredible appreciation for something so intriguingly delicate as my fellow human being.

Let’s not get it twisted, though. There are some real dicks out there and the world can be a very disgusting, horrible place.  I’m not saying to be blissfully unaware. I am saying that you need to be concerned with your own experience and needs, regardless of all the external happenings. I’m certainly not ignorant. But I do strongly believe, if you obsess about these things you cannot control, this not only limits your potential in life; it also minimizes your ability to make a positive impact on those around you and to the value of your own being.

So, I want to be good.

I want to help you smile.

I want to share that moment where we discover our strengths and weaknesses and laugh so hard, we need to pee.

I will give you an unguarded version of myself. I will show you I have something to offer. I will (hopefully) be patient. I will take from you only that which you allow. I want to embrace you, because our lives decided to collide, regardless of our own selfish little bubble. I will always try to understand the world better and learn to observe it more carefully. And when you start feeling unsure of yourself, I want to help you remember: we were all born with unknowings and really, isn’t it all sort of funny?

I’ll do this and hope that someone will show me the same kindness, but regardless of.

I bet I fuck up. But what I want is to be good, so I guess that is what I’ll be.